As I mentioned in my first post of the year, my goal and effort for this year is to explore myself, listen to my feelings carefully and respectfully, with patience, time, consciousness and attention to detail. And I’m happy to say, it’s been going pretty well. I can realise more quickly what’s going on when some bad mood kicks in (or PMS – real thing), but also – I am enjoying and appreciating the good moods much more and do my best to prolong them or tune back to them the moment I sense some clouds coming.
Taking care of ones inner well-being is like tidying up the house and sweeping off the dust – you gotta do it frequently. Like any well functioning system is not just coincidentally well-organised and constantly maintained, the connection with the inner world and a certain tuning of the inner voices has also to be maintained more often than I ever thought. Discipline every day, my friends, is the key.
This is how my journey looks like:
I’m trying to take some time for reflection on daily basis using some guidance – I stumbled upon a wonderful App for meditation called Headspace last September and tried its impact. It gives you a trial of 10 sessions á 10 minutes. I took the offer three times, starting over again after finishing with the last session, and sometimes repeating the same session right after. Meanwhile, I signed up for the payed account and keep learning to focus and be present for at least those ten minutes, which sure in more easily said than done – I still haven’t had a session where my thoughts wouldn’t buzz interrupting the focus. But I’m trying and learning, that’s the most important.
What I realised though is that the thought noise is made out of a constant talking in my head. If I (try to) turn of the languages and just let the feelings about my mood and body arise without describing them in sentences – I’m on a very good way to a session of presence. To gently calm down the monologs, discussions, visual memories or song lyrics (!!) that arise is a challenge worth taking.
I recommend at least trying out this method of inner well-being maintenance. If you feel a change – I’d be happy to hear about it. Also, there’s many other apps there, too, in different languages and lengths. But starting now and being disciplined about your well-being is what it takes.
So, lit up a candle to make it more cozy for a wonderful little session of mind calming and try it. It's a step forward, small but firm.